About Me
About MeI hate being flashed
by my parent's house, they have very windy roads. I love driving on a road with lots of curves, makes things more fun! but at a bend I saw the faint flashing of police lights. I slowed and drove on the curve. I met a police cruiser facing me. I was blinded by the lights. no indication of people, I get out of my car and walk towards the cruiser to try to get an indication of how long it would take. even standing to the side of the cruiser I had to shield my eyes from the onslaught of light to see the empty driver's seat. I walked down a little more, only to see another cruiser with an object in between. downed trees? closer examination I saw a faint red reflection from a car, but the car was overturned. I backtracked and drove around to came out on the other side of the accident.
while I was at my parent's house, my mom told me about one of my father's friends. apparently, he wants to matchmake me. as a kid, the thought of being setup by my parents was nauseating. I still don't like the idea, only because I feel like the side I show to my parents isn't who I really am. but at the same time what do I have to lose? we always have a choice to say no. if anything it's a way to kill some time, and maybe meeting another friend.
Mood: trying to seize whatever opportunity I can at this point in time.
holiday cleaning
I thought it would be a good idea to clean. I've kind of put my home life on hold since the breakup, I haven't cleaned about a month before and since. so my place is a total sty!! I've cleaned up about 2/3 of the stuff from my floor, 1/2 of the stuff from my primary desk. NONE of the stuff from my secondary desk. but it's looking a whole lot better. so I'm just glad for the improvement!
I got a text when I landed. my washing machine is busted. new one won't be here until the 17th. after coming home for a few days, the laundry that was washed in taiwan doesn't smell that good. I didn't smell it while I was in taiwan. but I guess being indoors heightened my sense of smell to the clothing that was hung out to dry. I have to go to my parent's house to rewash it. oh well I need to go there anyway and drop off stuff.
Mood: I want to reform my old GOOD habits and drop the BAD ones I developed
pictures pictures everywhere!!
for those of U who haven't seen. I put my pics from my taiwan trip up BUT!!
I updated some pictures. I added about 15-20
Mood: yay new pics!!
this blog
I've been holding back. I've been wanting to say things, but I feel like people who DO read it or MIGHT read it would look at me. but this blog should be about me. how I feel about things. about the trials and tribulations of MY life. yet I can't seem to write how I REALLY feel... the end of the day. I don't want to hurt anyone. I don't want to be thought of badly for how I feel.
Mood: I wish things were different in my life.
random thoughts of taiwan.
driving. when I look at people driving in taiwan, I'm reminded of the wild west in movies. there's this general lawlessness of lines and rules. since there's a massive amount of scooters/motorcycles that don't follow the rules too, U need to avoid them. that also causes U to cross whatever line U use. but whatever the case, U just need to be mindful of UR surroundings. honking UR horn in the states, I would have to say is more like "U friggin idiot UR in my way." in taiwan it's more of a, "hey I'm here, just letting U kno." don't get me wrong it still can mean what it means in the states.
polarized. I love my polarized sunglasses. not only do they help block out the sun, they make things even darker by removing lots of glare, reducing even more amounts of light, so the color donesn't have to be as dark to do the same job. being in taipei, I did notice that when I put them on, there's this rainbow effect. I saw it on cars, helmets, scooters, even someone's hair. I never seen that sort of thing in the states. I have no idea what that sheen on everything is.
election propoganda. saturday is an election. originally I was going to leave that day, but my mom thought it would be too busy for everyone to drive me to the airport and they would have to entertain me for a few days longer. so I decided to come early and spend thanksgiving with my girlfriend, then she broke up with me... moving on!! everyone's gearing up for election time!! it's a little funny seeing a car with a giant megaphone telling you to vote for someone. I swer they're trying to brainwash me or something. it reminds me of what happened in world war II, where an enemy would Use a megaphone and say things to demoralize you.
time feels different in the country. I don't kno if it's because my aunts and uncle aren't working, there's nothing to really do, or I was taken to a time warp. but time out in the country feels slower. I like that pace. I was very relaxing, expecially since I get in manic moods when I'm rushing to get something done. no pressure, no deadline, no countdown. UR just here.
business/homes. I've noticed that lots of people's shops are their homes. if U walk in the back of the building, there's a bathroom where U can shower. it's not a built in shower. how bathrooms are in taiwan, there's a drain in the floor, so essentially U can get the whole bathroom wet, it'll just go down that drain. so it's as easy as attatching something to the foucet, have it's own spout, with a removable showerhead holder attached to the wall. whatever the case, it's easy to turn most of the bathrooms to have a shower. many places have a second floor where they would live. it's more in the countryside than in the bigger cities.
wah bu yiaw!! I saw a little girl I would put her around 8 and her grandparents while I was in a restaurant. apparently she didn't want to eat at that restaurant. and throwing a hissy fit. she kept on saying "wah bu yiaw" and crying. her grandmother was talking to her fairly calmly, telling her to just eat here. this is where I would let her cry, and be like... well we're eating here, U don't have to eat, but if UR hungry later, we're not going anywhere else. yes, I believe kids should be kids, but kids need to learn to make the best of a situation early, so when they're faced with tough situations later, they can manage. my kids will SOOOOO hate me. I hope they'll appriciate me later on in life. I feel like I'm like that.
sanitary food. in the states, restaurants HAVE to meet certain sanitary conditions. sometimes I don't belive it's true in taiwan. I've seen restaurants where the concrete floor is black/grey, fans have a layer of dust on them, tables have some stickyness to them. for some reason, those places seem to have the BEST food!!
bugs. mosquitoes: 50. me: 5. I think they won. I only managed to kill a handful of mosquitoes. I'm scracthing my arm and all I feel are bumps. it's like I have chicken pox!!