a place where I belong
for a while, I've been displaced. my desktop computer was moved out of the bedroom at my wife's request. and now, occasionally she'll uses it as much as me. she's claimed our spare bedroom for her work space. our dog has her own room to play in. but I want my own space too. yes my desk is mine, but it isn't all that comfortable to be at, since it's kind of shared. I decided to claim the dog's room, but I want to still be able to play, plus it's hot and I really don't like being hot. ya, I'm picky what can I say... I've been looking at ikea hackers a lot recently. I used that for some inspiration. I planned out a fold up desk, where the legs swing out, knind of like a barn door and the desk would swing up to sit on top of it. building it I ran into a handfull of problems here and there, so the design changed and newer adjustments needed to be made. but I think it worked out. I used less wood than I would've needed if I were to go with my original design. so now, fold up desk is done. I'm pretty happy with myself. I probably spent about $150 on the desk. about 2 weekends next up is working on the lighting. I do like it dark, but I also need a lot of light since I plan to use it as a light duty workbench.
Mood: hardware mode. phase 1 done! YAY!
it's a little weird. ever since I was a kid, I've worked at my father's garage. so for the past 20 years or so, I've worked there off and on. I've never liked going, but for the past few years, I've accepted it as part of my life.
recently, I've been having issues with my hand, it's been increasingly painful to work. last week, I decided that it's been enough. and today, it feels like a sunday. what I would normally do is already done. I can't help but to feel a little restless. what am I going to do with my saturdays? I feel like I can do some things that I haven't done, but I have this nagging feeling that I'm not doing something right.
what have I decided to do with this extra time? well, I don't have any definite plans. I have this urge to have a second job. fixing computers is always an option, photography I'm constantly paranoid that I'll miss that one great shot that I should get, make an mobile app, work on a random project. or just spend time with the wife & dog. who knows. I'll figure something out
Location: former garage
rolling back around
it's not that I haven't had anything interesting to say, it's more that I haven't been in the mood to write. I go through phases where I want to do one thing.
so far, I've wanted to write about my trip to sanfran, hanging out with a girl that my parents set me up with, getting off my ass and starting a business, an ex wanting to be back into my life.
I had time sitting on the train last night. partly cause it's valentine's day, I'm thinking of past relationships. I know I shouldn't, but I can't help myself. I got valentine's day drilled into my head today at work. our secretary is a holiday nut. I'm not a fan of valentine's day in the first place. mostly because I'm not romantic. I think I do little things year round. so to take a day, just to show everyone around U... total bullshit.
why was I on the train? I went to the city was to try to cheer up a friend. she's been feeling down after a hard breakup last week. she spends a lot of the time crying, and valentine's day being full of people in love reminds her of what she lost. I thought I'd spend time with her to help take her mind off of things. in case you're wondering, no it's not for me to take advantage of her. a year and a half ago, I had a crush on her after my breakup. I knew that it was because I was vulnerable that I developed feelings for her for all the wrong reasons. I hate seeing my friends sad, so I'll do my best to make them feel better. it was pretty much a bust, she was in a zombie like state most of the night. she did laugh and smile at the end, it reminded me of her usual self.
I'm a little bitter towards my former crush. a few months ago when my ex was breaking up with me, she saw happy pictures of them posted on facebook and asked, why can't we be more like that? at the time, I knew part of the reason why their relationship was on shaky ground. adding more ammo to my anti-valentine mentality. I guess this is my round about way of saying... if U really love someone, U shouldn't just set aside the day with everyone else has to show you love your significant other, you should show it when you can.
Mood: ya. I'm a self righteous douche